tonight
i dont know why i have d feeling to bring everything back again
so many things running in my mind now
i thought it will be a waste if i dont type it all out now
so im just gonna confess everything out here
no special reason
just a plainold confession
i thought my life will be okay without you
yeah im trying to be
but still i know myself im not
and my closest friend
they can see that too
they told me themselve
guess thats me
a bit stubborn yet i didnt feel i am until someone elses complain
in the beginning im so naive
i wasnt good enough
not giving too much attention to your personal needs
emotional needs
i dont know how to say
it just that you want
love
care
more love
more care
im treat you like those puppy love couples
still flirting you
making fun of you
and joking with you
but sometimes its too over
maybe im wrong
i should have use the simplest way
to just love and care you
i can see some people around us they dont quarrel much
yeah they are really good couples
they dont have problem
and when they do
one of them will totally give way to another
and just appologies
im different
i choose to settle it on the spot
i would like to makes things clear
to avoid further conflicts
for a better future
sometimes i guess
its good to guess it right
but when wrong
it sucks
for both of us
maybe im wrong
i should have use the simplest way
appologies straight away
i know we need to have space in a relationship
so the moment we started
i gave you freedom
i gave you friends to play with
i gave you time with family and friends
i gave you what i think you need
and i thought you how to be independent
so that you will be stronger
and sometimes when im not around you
cause im alevel and your in a different course
it maybe very very busy
maybe im wrong
i should have use the simplest way
loving and relying each other as much as we can
that what sweet couples do right?
cant live without each other
ya me too
but i control it
so hard to control it
some more the way i talk and i think
i dont know why
but no matter how i change to make it better for you
you still wont accept it
i dont think i have a problem with the way you talk and think
it just me that cause the problem for you
when you cant even accept any form of me
maybe a little different from d very beginning we know
at lot more teasing and lot more original
why do we even love each other at the beginning?
maybe im wrong
i should have use the simplest way
not to talk like a man but a gentleman instead
its true
my feelings can affect you automatically
and your feelings can affect mine damn easily
i make you happy and you made mine too
but somedays
i disappoint you
not 1 not twice but many times
in any possible form
sadness grows immediately and you cant control your tears
i know
cause i felt exactly the same thing
when im sad
i tend to think alot
like damn alot
things like what is the problem now
why we quarrel again
its your fault
or its my fault
are we suit together
should we give each other another chance
are we going to pass through this
so many things pop up in my mind when im sad
but always always
i didnt give up
i swear i never give up
i will never never give up
i rather let you give up on me than give up myself
i believe you have d same thought too
maybe im wrong
i should have use the simplest way
not making you sad at any cost at the very beginning
for me
it will never happen
but it finally happened
one of us gave up
its over for now
but who can predict the fututre?
im still holding on
yaya for you maybe im stupid i know
so what?
youre the one reading my stupid blog
does that make you smart?????
ohno im talking to myself again
tomorrow i will be going on a vacation with my family again
only this time is langkawi!
wuhoohoo!
it been almost 10 years we havent been there
we decided to go this time
because we found that we are having a really great time through the old photos
so 4 days 3 night
me mai bro mai dad mai mom
4 person
langkawi
how was your holydey doing?
WTF 3.30am?
oknightciao
from samurai tjy
why do i even blog all this anyway
guess im really too free
and have nothing better to do
TEEHEE
dont have time read twice a
maybe i will type wrong
so dont angry dont o ling o first
wait me balik baru tukar ba ciaoooooooooo
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