total useless piece of @#$%^&*

so many things to say

so many things running in my mind

but yet i cant control myself

control my emotion

i dont know why

i cant say what i want to say

i cant even look at you when i want to

stressed up by a levels

i think so

lack of sleep

i guess so

fear of hurting you

maybe

and all this

brought tremendous regret

i cant concentrade during classes

i cant sleep in classes

i cant stop fearing..

no im not happy and yes i want to be happy

have you ever heard of something like this

when the other part of you feels happy

you feel happy too

and when the other part of you feels sad

you feel sad too

its true

its too good to be true 

and guys
be polite

be caring

be honest

be loving

be friendly

be alert

be brave

be responsible

dont be a lala

dont be forgetful

dont be a fool

dont be selfish

dont tease

dont smoke or feed on drug

dont flirt

dont be a moron

dont talk about girls

dont be an idiot

and most important of all

dont be the teejaywhy of the past

hes a total useless piece of @#$%^&*

but hopefully not anymore more from today onwards

i cant afford to lose you

because you are my heart and my soul

i love you more than anything and anyone that love you

just that im a total useless piece of @#$%^&* that sucks at showing it

how i wish to know everything about you

the past present and future

but all i want to know now

is what are you doing

i really miss you